Wednesday, June 30, 2010


This week has been ridiculously busy but great!

I went to Philly for the weekend where I got to spend time with my dearests. On Friday, Christine and I biked all over Philly in the blistering heat to run various errands and see the free at noon Gogol Bordello show at World Cafe Live. It was my second time seeing them and they are really great, though Eugene definitely toned his performance down for the radio broadcast. While in Philly I also went to see Toy Story 3 (in 3D) for the 2nd time, turned 21 *cough, cough*, and went to The Barbary for the first time.

I also nabbed a paying job as a graphic designer of sorts for my mom's old business partner/the mom of an old middle school peer. It's pretty fun work, especially since I get to use photoshop and a tablet. Plus I get to work from home which means while I draw I watch movies in my PJs. My first project was really easy and my employers were really happy with the results. But my newest project is proving to be very difficult for no real reason other than the customer isn't entirely satisfied with my designs...and the customer is always right. Basically I have to make a caraciture of my boss but make it look hand drawn while simultaneously making her look sexy. I've made about 50 different versions of the drawing but they're never quite right.

So the image on the left is the original and the image on the right is the one I am currently editing to fit her specifications. She wants to look "less manly" and sexier, the glasses should be filled black but more square but about 1/3rd the size in the drawing on the left. If you guys have any suggestions about how to make this look "sexier" please let me know! Maybe I need to change the mouth or the eyes? The thing is, they want it to look kind of sloppy.

To add to my business, I also just received my new passport in the mail (DOESN'T EXPIRE FOR 10 YEARS YAHOO!) which means I can start my VISA And I've been house sitting for a neighbor. And I'm doing some video work for my mom. And I'm researching the possibility of minoring in Art at Temple U. And I'm sort of studying for my permit test (I don't know when I will take it but I swear I'll get it done this summer). And tomorrow I am dogwalking all day (7 dogs throughout the Harlem/Upper West/Upper East areas). AND I leave for Cape Cod on Friday for 4th of July!


I haven't seen my friends or even my baby bro in soooo long!!

I miss them.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Ghost Story

Yo, so here's the deal. I am not a religious person, but I do sometimes consider myself a spiritual person. I believe in ghosts and horoscopes and hauntings and psychics etc. I don't know why. I was kind of raised on it. I get a real high off of scary movies and books and I always kind of wished I was a psychic. Other than getting some really creepy vibes from the back room bathroom in my old apartment on Riverside Drive, I have never really experienced any real "paranormal activity". Sure, I've heard stories from other people. When I was growing up we had a roommate named Julie who apparently was followed around by ghosts her whole life. She would wake up and find all of her kitchen cabinets and drawers open or she would find things in her apartment that wouldn't belong to her.

I'm not positive, but I think I had my first "supernatural experience" last night. I didn't remember all the details until this evening. I woke up this morning feeling really weird and was kind of wondering why I don't always sleep well at when I am at my grandma's house. I was thinking maybe it was because the bed is just a mattress on the floor and being that low might be disorienting or something. I always feel kind of unrested. I fell asleep at about 2am but woke up around 3am cause Adam drunk dialed me. We talked for 17 minutes (according to my cellphone) and then I hung up and rolled over and tried to fall back asleep. I felt like I was in one of those half awake/half asleep dream states where you can still think and move but everything is cloudy. As I was snoozing I was facing away from the wall and all of a sudden it felt like someone was laying next to me. It was comforting at first. I thought I was hallucinating that I was being spooned by Adam or something (since I had just gotten off the phone with him). Then I felt something like a hand go down the length of my arm and then gently hold my wrist. I wanted to change positions to face the person...but when I tried roll over, I couldn't. I felt restricted like I was being held down. I felt lucid but drowsy at the same time so I was able to create thought processes in my head. I kept trying to roll over but I couldn't move my body and then I tried to scream but no sound came out. My mouth was open but other than a slight weezing, there was no sound.

I kept trying and trying and I couldn't scream or make any sound and I kept trying to move my arms and turn around but I couldn't and I remember thinking, 'Oh my god. Someone broke in and injected me w/ a muscle relaxant and I'm about to get raped.' (Kind of a weirdly specific thought process.) But then I was finally able to move my head so I turned it to the other side of the bed where I felt the person and there was a naked man curled up and I remember thinking, 'he's Spanish or Mexican' cause he had darker skin and then he made a face like he was screaming or talking. His mouth was kind of rounded and he looked sad. I was instantly freaked. But the second I saw him I was able to turn my head back and then I could move my whole body again. It was as if I had woke up because I had full control of my body again. I felt slightly threatened but I rolled over in the direction the man had been and he wasn't there so I curled up in a ball and instantly fell asleep until morning.

I really hope that was some weird awake type dream because otherwise I'm pretty sure it was a ghost. It didn't feel like a dream. I'm only a little scared though. Tonight I'm sleeping at my dad's and I'm not supposed to be back at my grandma's until at least wednesday. I kind of want to go back and see if it happens again. But I am a little scared. It was the weirdest experience.




Thursday, June 17, 2010

Things Are Looking UP!

After a few weeks of absolute uncertainty, stress, paranoia, and frustration, things are finally getting better! I am no longer worrying about:
-my financial situation
-finding a job (because I seem to be getting jobs thrown at me nowadays!)
-buying my plan tickets (BOOYAH! I'll be in Europe from 9/1-12/17)
-applying for a passport (had it expedited yesterday!)
-not seeing my friends (I love them more than ever and today we're hanging in Central Park)


I really hope my summer continues to look like this as opposed to how it looked a few days ago when everything was going wrong and things like having my nose ring stuck/having to have my step-dad attempt to remove it with pliers and getting into fights with my parents. THOSE DAYS BETTER BE OVER!

Thursday, June 3, 2010


So not to be super morose and a barer of bad news, but last night I received word from Adam about this girl that we both knew. Her name is Sabina and it turns out she was robbed and murdered the other night in Philly.

I didn't know her that well. I had only met her a few times and we never talked much but I'm still really really freaked out about it happening. Like, when Adam told me I didn't think much of it. The weird thing was that I had just looked at a picture of her at an event on fb. She had just been in my thoughts. After I got off the phone I went to tell my dad and all of a sudden I broke down and started sobbing. It's just REALLY SCARY! I've never realllllly known anyone my age who has died in such a violent way. And she was tiny. My size. Maybe smaller. It's so fucking sad. It doesn't even matter that I didn't know her well, it's just such a fucking waste of life. She was so young. And now I'm scared for EVERYONE. I just don't want to hear of this happening to anyone else. It's so terrible. People can be so terrible.

Basically, just everyone please be safe this summer. Don't walk around by yourself like Dee that night she disappeared and thought she was with Corrie. Just be careful and I promise I'll do the same.