Showing posts with label dream. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dream. Show all posts

Monday, March 28, 2011

Dream Journal Entry#2

Had a weird dream that I went back to London to visit and eat a weird potato sausage dish at a cafe with my family...but, I also had a baby?  And the baby's name was Diana (Princess + London???) and for some reason this random guy with curly blonde hair decided he wanted to use me as a bomb so he built a bomb into the skin in my back and it kind of looked like Iron Man's reactor arc thing and I couldn't touch it or move fast or it would go off and no one would take my baby and he wanted me to blow up some mall in the US where I worked in the Victoria's Secret, but I tried to save lives by going to some field and then it was really sad because I kept trying to call my family to tell them I loved them but my phone wouldn't dial the numbers correctly and then my mom's ex-bf called me and I remembered he was really good at technology so I asked him to come get me and diffuse the bomb and my dad and Quinn showed up and we had to steal a car.  Meanwhile, baby Princess Diana was in a paper bag with blankets, much like a wallaby, the whole time and it was really freaky.  In the end, they somehow remove the bomb, but I had a big chunk of flesh that was taken out of my back.  Gross. 

I don't even have an analysis for this.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Current Goings Ons part 2

Attempts to make my blog private because the only people I really want to see it are my close friends, who are the reason I made the blog in the first place. I know it seems stupid to have a blog on the internet where everyone can pretty much see it, but when I made it I was under the impression that only a handful of people really cared to know about my ramblings and I have recently discovered that there are some creepers out there in the world (i.e. Tim Kesilewski).

My day:
HELL DAY OF CLASS
-professor/class really liked my videography project, which always surprises me
-handed in a 5 page paper/received a B on my first paper of the semester (not bad)
-ate an amazing salad
-took a nap and had a crazy dream in which I had a stroke (basically I couldn't breathe or talk and my facial muscles started drooping and I collapsed to the floor). Woke up gasping for air.
-Possible dream analysis for this is:
1. my mom was sick last year with symptoms similar to this though she was never really diagnosed and although she has been better for almost a year now the other day she said she experience the same symptoms again :/
2. the most disturbing part of the dream was my physical inability to talk, which I believes stems from my recent experiences. This being that I feel like a lot of good things have been happening to me lately but some of my friends seem to not be getting their way. I feel guilty for being happy and I feel like discussing certain daily goings-on in my life might seem callous or mean. I just don't want to be insensitive to the feelings of others, but I would still like to share my good stories with them. Does that make sense? Is that wrong?
-studied for my psych test (ugh)
-attempted to create prohibition hair/put on a sequined dress
-discussed the current apartment dynamic of 203-E w/ Annie
-had an interesting AIM discussion with my ex-baby-bf Jesse Baskin (weird)

Monday, January 25, 2010

Dream Journal Entry#1

I've noticed since I got back to school and have been sleeping in my school bed that I have been having some really crazy dreams. For the most part, they are anxiety dreams but they have been disturbing and detailed and just plain strange. Annie and I like to try and analyze our dreams based on Freudian analysis (thank you Mosaic 1!) and various websites about symbol interpretation. I am going to start a segment of this blog titled "Dream Journal" where I can document my dreams and maybe people can give me their own interpretations of what they mean.

WARNING this dream isn't particularly interesting, but even if it is the most boring dream in the world I am going to write it down to keep as a record.

Dream
Basic gist of dream is I am me but I'm living in the suburbs, not the city, and I'm in a house that I know is mine but is altogether unfamiliar to me. I am ruthlessly trying to get a job at a fancy corporate building but every time I go to get interviewed I get blown off by the boss, who finally tells me to meet him at 6pm for an interview. My step-mom works in the building and while I am there I visit her and she hands me an autographed play and then a potential book list for Mosaic 2. On the list, 3 books are remembered: Walden, something called HUMAN SEXUALITY, and then a series of children's stories about Michael Jackson (??????). Then in the dream in turns out I am dating the ex-bf of a friend of mine, but in real life I am currently not so fond of this person (at least right now), and even though I feel that it is right for me to be dating this person I simultaneously feel guilty. I ask him to take me to a sort of sorority formal? He says he'll think about it which makes me angry and nervous and I take out a cigarette to smoke but he says "don't smoke that now, save it for later." So I put it back in my bag. Then later in my dream I am showering to get ready for the evening even though I do not have to and I put on a red dress/skirt ensemble and when I go downstairs to talk to my mom about not being sure if my bf is taking me or not she gets a phone call from a neighbor asking if they've seen me today and they describe me as wearing a red dress and having my spine totally twisted around as if I had been hit by a car and I was dead. I look at myself and sure enough I am twisted around and I realize I am dead and a zombie and I start crying hysterically but my mom doesn't seem to understand and then my step-dad comes home and says, "look who's here!" And I go out and expect to see my bf but instead there are 3 large African-American guys in tuxedos all holding flowers and telling me that they want to be my date. Eventually I realize 6pm comes and I do not go to the interview. I also tell the guys "I'm sorry but I have a bf and I cannot choose between you three." Then I woke up. THANKS A LOT ALARM CLOCK!

Important Dream Symbols/Elements
1 lost job interview-basically I need a job/need to sort out my priorities
being dead/zombie-To see or dream that you are a zombie, suggests that you are physically and/or emotionally detached from people and situations that are currently surrounding you. I can sort of interpret that as me feeling torn about spending time with my different friend groups. It can be hard to balance everything.
wearing red- Red is an active, affective colour, full of passion and emotion. Red can mean luck, joy, happiness, energy, action, but also hate, blood, greed, irritability and will power.
wanting to smoke but not-To dream that you are smoking or offering a cigarette, signifies your need for a break. It may also points to issues of dependency. This could also be due to the fact that with having 2 smoking roommates I occasionally smoke with them and I do not want to develop an addiction.
having to choose between 4 guys, 1 being a friend's ex-bf-this directly relates to something going on in my life right now/was going on in my life a few weeks ago