This Semester is GROSS

I have not updated in a long time. I just have not been very inspired and I have not had much time because my HW load is actually ridiculous. I've never had so much to do in my life. Second semester sophomore year is sucking the life out of me. I feel like I barely see my friends anymore because I'm always in the tech center fighting over graphic design or final cut pro computers until 2am. But thankfully, I have only:
-3 more days of class
-2 midterms
-1 essay
left to complete. It's still stressful and I feel so worn out by the end of the day. Not to mention the various dramas going on in my life right now revolving around living arrangements and packing and unpacking and $$ and everything. I guess this week is just an off week because usually I feel rather happy. But the stress is getting to me. I think I just need to go home for a little while and "recharge my batteries", as my dad likes to say. I HATE TO BE NEGATIVE BUT I JUST FEEL NEGATIVE TODAY!

Some fun stuff that has happened
1) My family came to visit. They took me and Adam out to brunch and picked up some of my stuff since move out is in 2 weeks.

2) I filled out a "part 2" London application and had to get passport photos taken w/ Christine

3) other than the last 3 days, the weather has been really nice

I just need 'dem study days.

I am...

I am a cook. I made brussel sprout and bacon stir fry. It was so good. I still have bacon. I'm going to get more brussel sprouts and make it again.

I am interested in documentary film. Yesterday I interviewed an orthodox rabbi.

I am learning to appreciate sports. On Friday I am going to a Phillies game but it is supposed to rain :(

I am going to be reunited with a friend and baby. On Saturday Jen and Audrey are coming to visit!

I am turning 20 on Monday.

I am nervous about my lack of plans. I still need to figure out what I am doing this summer. There's a chance I might live in Philly for at least 1/2 the summer. I would just need to find a really cheap place.

I am nervous about not having picked classes for London.

I am nervous that my London check was not received :/

I am sleepy and need to wash my hair.

I am eating a nectarine with Nutella.

PON DE FLOOR!!/EASTER

IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I POSTED ANYTHING! But I have been both busy and unmotivated. Some things that are currently happening/have happened:
1) Today it is SO nice out. A heat wave has reached Philly and we currently have July weather in April!

2) In the last week I have become extremely motivated about doing schoolwork. I realized just how much I've been slacking off this semester (in everything but my film classes) and I just hate to not be as much of a success as I can be, so I wrote a paper 1 week before it is due, have been actually doing my readings, and have been editing movies non-stop.

3) Today I am interviewing 2 more rabbis (orthodox and conservative, yesterday it was reform and I loved him) for my religion final. It is due tomorrow. I am going to die editing it.

4) Friday went to MAJOR LAZER and PONNED DA FLOOR! So much fun. I was almost killed on my bicycle twice though that night. The first being my own fault (falling over while being completely stopped at a red light) and the other time was when a car threw a waterbottle at me. They missed by about 2 feet but they were trying to hit me and they could have really hurt me. Adam hit their car with his bike lock as revenge! Anyway, danced a whole lot at the show but kept getting separated from my homies. Caitlin bit my head and lost her phone.

5) I've been on a 16 and Pregnant binge. Such a good show.

6) I met Adam's family on Sunday for Easter! I had never been to a Catholic mass before and I have to say it was rather fun! I mean, I don't believe a word that comes out of the priest's mouth, but I enjoyed the symbolism of everything and the church decorations and especially the little girl behind me who wore pearls and told me she liked my dress. ADORABLE. After mass we had lunch at his aunt's house. Most of his family is very religious and conservative. It was weird seeing him being around them since he is so different. I LOVE HIS MOM. She gave me Easter candy and was adorable and so nice. She took these really awkward prom photos of us (see below) and then tagged me on Facebook and wrote the most embarrassing comment under it. Adam and I had quite a laugh about it because we felt so awkward.


Now I am making cheesy rice and preparing for my next class! After tonight, I will be free! I mean, I'll still have HW but not these hideous levels that make me want to end my life.

"THERE'S A PENIS ON THE LOOSE!"

Oh glorious road trip. You were my first and I will never forget you. Who would have thought that the American south could ACTUALLY be awesome. I mean, I would never want to live there. But as for the sights and the history and the totally different culture, it was fascinating! I even have a new-found appreciation for country music (particularly women in country music) and I will miss wearing cowboy boots all the time. Also, the food was amazing. Never have I eaten such delicious ribs, tacos, donuts, anything fried etc. in my life. Highlights include:
1) Lorraine Motel in Memphis, TN
2) Statue of Liberation through Christ in Memphis, TN
3) Grassy Knoll/Dealy Plaza in Dallas, TX
4) SoCo in Austin, TX
5) charming every gay man we met
6) My Name is John Michael and TrainWreck live shows in Nashville, TN
7) seeing the Mississippi for the first time (WATER!)
8) staying in the sketchiest Super8 of all time in Memphis, TN
9) Madeleine Albright's pins in Little Rock, AR
10) homemade spaghetti/salad dinner and Harry Potter charades in Ashville, NC
11) sleeping in a Wal-Mart parking lot and therefore becoming a "person of Wal-Mart" in Dallas, TX
12) flirting with David at Sonic while eating "blasters" in Little Rock, AR
13) scoping out all the HOT LOCAL TEENS

There were also hilarious quotes (I can't name them all, there is an entire notebook dedicated to their hilarity) and wondrous thriftin' (which included 3 new belts, 2 new dresses, 2 tee shirts, a pair of heels my size, and a Coach purse!) and I relaly just want to thank all the people with legitamate drivers licences who drove my non-driving NYC ass over 3000 miles. You guys are baller! I also have to give a shout out to Mrs. Weigel for being so awesome letting us use the van and to Mrs. Pride for being generous enough to pay for dinner on International Women's Day (WOMEN RULE). Y'allz are awesome.

Current Goings Ons part 2

Attempts to make my blog private because the only people I really want to see it are my close friends, who are the reason I made the blog in the first place. I know it seems stupid to have a blog on the internet where everyone can pretty much see it, but when I made it I was under the impression that only a handful of people really cared to know about my ramblings and I have recently discovered that there are some creepers out there in the world (i.e. Tim Kesilewski).

My day:
HELL DAY OF CLASS
-professor/class really liked my videography project, which always surprises me
-handed in a 5 page paper/received a B on my first paper of the semester (not bad)
-ate an amazing salad
-took a nap and had a crazy dream in which I had a stroke (basically I couldn't breathe or talk and my facial muscles started drooping and I collapsed to the floor). Woke up gasping for air.
-Possible dream analysis for this is:
1. my mom was sick last year with symptoms similar to this though she was never really diagnosed and although she has been better for almost a year now the other day she said she experience the same symptoms again :/
2. the most disturbing part of the dream was my physical inability to talk, which I believes stems from my recent experiences. This being that I feel like a lot of good things have been happening to me lately but some of my friends seem to not be getting their way. I feel guilty for being happy and I feel like discussing certain daily goings-on in my life might seem callous or mean. I just don't want to be insensitive to the feelings of others, but I would still like to share my good stories with them. Does that make sense? Is that wrong?
-studied for my psych test (ugh)
-attempted to create prohibition hair/put on a sequined dress
-discussed the current apartment dynamic of 203-E w/ Annie
-had an interesting AIM discussion with my ex-baby-bf Jesse Baskin (weird)

!!!

TIM KESILEWSKI, DON'T READ MY BLOG.

Pros/Cons

I WANT TO LIVE IN PHILLY THIS SUMMER!
I am just SO READY to move out of my parent's house and never return.
I love them, but I can't live with them. Anymore.

PROS
1. Living in Philly would be awesome and I would be with my friends.
2. I could live in an area other than North Philly and see how I like it.
3. My mom seems to be okay with this idea, I just need to figure out the $$$ situation.
4. If I get a house with "The Great Place" girls and the lease starts in May, I could start living there before London. And if I don't get to go to London (PLEASE GOD LET ME GO TO LONDON!) then I could have a place to look after while my study abroad girls are gone.
5. Maybe I could take summer classes and then my grandparents would pay for it?

CONS
1. I need to get a job in Philly. How do I get a job in Philly?
2. My parents are more for me living at home fo' free.
3. I almost definitely have possible jobs lined up for me in NYC, sooooo I should probably take advantage of that.
4. My grandparents currently pay for all of my school stuff but this is not school stuff :(
5. My BESTIES will be in NYC and I would miss them more than life itself.

I feel like part of this decision is riding on whether I get to go to London or not.
Honestly, all I really need is a paying job and then I could probably convince all parties to let me do it.